So
here I was in November 2011 with a finished manuscript which I had entered into
my first competition hoping for a fast track to success.
I
was still seeing my chiropractor, but because my money was starting to run out
I was now only seeing him once a week, instead of three times a week which I
had when I had first ruptured my spleen.
I
had travelled through the gates of hell; back and forth for many months
suffering agonising pain as I paid for my sins in life.
Slowly,
and very slowly indeed, I began to fight back as I tried to regain control over
my body.
I
was dropping four pain killing tablets down my throat every three hours. I had
been for months, and like a spider in the night that creeps up and spins it
webs, I was entangled in a never ending desire to pop the pills.
I
have read in the press about super stars who died after overdosing on
prescription drugs and you think to yourself, ‘how could they be so silly.’
Well
I wasn’t on prescription drugs which are a lot more powerful than the basic
pain killers you can buy over the counter. But and this is a very big but, I
found that I couldn’t go more than three hours without the need to pop more of
these, over the counter pills.
I
kept saying to myself, ‘Just take four every six hours.’ But just like the
night follows the day my body followed the same routine in its hunger for pain
relief.
If
I missed the schedule my back would ache in pain; then one day I had enough.
I
bought a bottle of strong cider and thought, ‘f@uk the pain killers.’
I
drunk myself silly on a 3 litre bottle of Frosty Jacks cider (7.5%) and for a short period of time I was
in a heavenly bliss.
I
awoke the next day with a hangover, but and again this is a big but, I had broken
the three hour cycle of pill popping which my body now demanded, and I was
never to go back.
Slowly,
very slowly I reduced the pain killers, and I found that the more I reduced the
intake of these, the more my pain abated.
As
in a previous chapter I talked about a book called, The Secret, who basic ethos
is that everything is connected by our thoughts in the brain. This experience
only confirmed this ethos. Pain was in my thoughts constantly so I popped the
pills to stop it, but as I reduced the pills, the pain also reduced.
Why
was this?
Because
the less I thought of pain killers, the less I had pain.
I just needed to have a comment on the above.The number of friends I know who are taking over the counter pills on a daily bases is worrying. I have friends who take non stop diet pills and liquids and never seem to loose weight but they just can't stop taking them.
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